I saw my mother last night and every time she said something, I couldn't help but think unkind thoughts. Since she has isolated herself, her topics of conversation is seriously depleted. She will discuss the life of her cleaning lady which happens to be my neighbor, and she discusses the life of her long time neighbor. I noticed that she has a hard time recalling just the right word or subject while she is in the middle of the conversation, and I know I do the same thing. I'm hoping this is just normal for people as we get older and not some kind of genetic disease. Once again she brought up the subject of my ex husband and the cruel way he treated my oldest son.
Any time a subject was brought up about whatever, she would always revert that subject back to her. Case in point; I asked my son about his dog who had eye infections. I know this because I was dog sitting while he went on vacation and a few weeks later, my dog got gross eyes. While discussing this, suddenly my mother chimes in that she has a goopy eye too. WTF? we were talking about a dog!
Also, my brother just paid for my daughters new car. She will pay him back, but I just hate having to ask. I could not let her continue to drive around in the car she was in so I asked his opinion. He said he would help her with the payment part of the deal, and I let him choose the car because I obviously know nothing. But the fact that I had to ask for money again makes me feel guilty.
It was kind of a relief when I got to talk to my sister in law after everyone left, and I said out loud to an actual family member that my mother makes me mad when she brings up my ex every time someone talks about my oldest child. It's like she has no happy memories of his childhood. My son was sitting there and he was smiling while she was talking so I don't know if it bothers him or not. I'm going to ask him.
